I've had a lot going on lately....I haven't denied that. I know whether you are a working mom or a stay at home mom we all have our own daily battles. There are advantages and disadvantages of both situations. I could stay at home like this mom who supports their entire family on 14K a year. She's amazing. Is there a perfect number for happiness? Several studies have shown that if you make too little you are not happy, yet if you make too much you aren't happy either. Why is that???
It's because happiness cannot be found in things, houses, new clothes, cars, or any other possessions. It can only be found through the path you choose for your life. You have a choice at every turn. Do I make the right choice or the wrong one?
I choose to follow Christ and I am a believer. I personally believe that has a lot to do with my happiness. Whether or not you believe in God is your choice. That's why Jesus died for our sins and we are able to make that decision in our hearts. We are freed.
Decisions....life is full of them.
Do I need that or do I want that? Is it a necessity?
I choose to work. I don't have to work. I also don't want to live in debt. This is a choice we have made so we can provide a better future for our family and they won't have to carry a financial burden. And- hopefully one day we'll be able to bless others. I love to give. It makes my heart happy! Hopefully by the end of this year we'll be debt free, minus our mortgage. Then we can start saving to pay for a car in cash. It hasn't been easy, just ask Terence, but we are a team. I enjoy the adult social interaction I get every day from my job. Connor loves school and his friends. His teachers probably come up with more things than I ever could teach him during the day. Whether you stay at home with your kids, you work by choice, or because you have to....life is what you make of it. Don't ever feel like you aren't doing good enough. Own your decision and make the most of it.
This life we live day in and day out can seem repetitive and full of twists and turns. How you handle the turn around the corner is a choice. Terence and I have really felt TV has become a "God" in our household. We come home and sit in front of the television and eat our dinner, but the sad part is Connor is in our bedroom watching a cartoon eating his dinner separately. Now, we do eat dinner at the table together sometimes...but not all the time. We are both so tired and that has been our excuse for lazy parenting. Terence has a long commute and we both work over 40 hours a week. Regardless, we knew something had to change. We felt a tug in our hearts to make a change and do it now.
We are looking into lowering our cable plan to just the basic channels and one DVR instead of two.
I'm proud of Terence because he has been getting up every day to run. I'm taking my tennis shoes to work and I'm going to start doing the stairs on my lunch hour. We were both feeling sick and sluggish and down right awful. Inside and out. We are also looking for a jogging stroller so Connor can go with us on walks in the evenings. Any recommendations???
It's easy to blame the stress of a job or house chores for your laziness. I do it all the time. It's hard to get everything done especially when you are OCD like me! ha! All I can say is do the best you can and God will take care of the rest. Everything will fall into place. There have been some major changes and my job lately and my work load has increased a lot. I'm trying not to get too overwhelmed, but some days it's just hard.
You'll probably see a little less blogging from me for awhile. My first priorities are and should always be God, my husband, and son. Lately they've not been at the top of my list and I've prioritized other things over them. That is going to change. I'm missing the best moments of motherhood and family time because I'm busy doing other non-important things to make me feel important???
I guess in some small way this blog is validation. Validation of my self worth. That people really do like me and enjoy what I have to say and they like seeing pictures of my kid. Why am I valuing myself on what other people think of me?
I catch myself constantly ignoring others because I'm on my phone or watching TV. Would I ignore Jesus if He was in the room standing next to me? Probably not! Next time you go to a public restaurant look around you and open your eyes. Count how many people have their heads down looking at their cell phones. It's become a security blanket for almost everyone. Clutching their phones in their hands fixated on what's on the screen. We are turning into zombies. We aren't feeling or doing.....we are just reading and texting.
Now, I don't want you all to think I don't love this blog or the friendships I have made from it. I love social networking and all it has to offer. There is also a lot of good that can come from it! I'm just saying that I've prioritized it over other things and lately have felt the need to change that.
I'm still going to love and nurture this blog, it is after all my journal. A place to post my beloved memories and pictures. A place for friends and family to read about what is going on in our lives. I also love reading about all of my "bloggy" friends lives too!
I just wanted to share a little bit about what has been on my heart lately.
If you are still reading this....thanks for sticking around and thank you for caring enough to read.
If you need prayer or are struggling with something right now like I am there is a whole community of people who will pray with you and support you. You just have to make the decision....and ask.
I pretty sure you'll be welcomed with open arms :-)
I'm off to go play with this silly kiddo.....