August 23, 2010

No Regrets

Life has definitely changed over the past six months.
(Possible long post ahead)

My sister in law Rebecca and I were talking the other day and she was telling me how she wanted to get back into playing the harp and piano. She went on to tell me how she felt it was something she let slip and fall to the wayside. Rebecca is truly a talented musician and you can tell this is something her heart desires in life. I guess it got me to thinking of life in general and most of all where life takes us.

I don't think anyone's life has turned out they way they fully intended it to be. But ask yourself this: "Is it supposed to be how we want it to be or how God wants it to be?" The paths we are on right now may not be something we envisioned for ourselves, but rather what God envisioned for us. I know Terence and I have both slipped up several times over the years. We've struggled and at times life has been down right hard and sometimes depressing. We realize now we wouldn't be at the point we are without those hard times to learn from.

When Bonnie and I graduated high school we both had high aspirations of going to an art school and majoring in some design field. Bonnie is an AMAZING artist...I wish she would post some of her designs on her blog. She was always much better than me! Anyway-life took us both on separate paths and we each went down our own roads. I never thought we would live so far apart from each other or our family.

Bonnie and I both had scholarships to a good college. I had a full scholarship plus a $1200 stipend each semester. Basically I was getting paid to go to school! I met Terence my first year of college and we fell head over heels for each other. Eventually school seemed not so important anymore-this amazing guy was in my life and we would spend every waking minute together! We both weren't focused on school at that point in our lives. We only had eyes for each other. Do I regret letting all of that go now? Of course I do! I don't think at 18 I knew what I had then...but I don't beat myself with a stick over it. My heart wasn't in it. I know that this life I have now is the one God intended for me. And all the choices I've made up until this point-good & bad-were the right ones and it's where I am supposed to be. Bonnie and I both still have a love for art and all things creative. And we can still use those skills in our everyday lives! I know someday there will be an art or science project the boys will come home with and we will be so excited to help with it :)

I'm so fortunate that my husband has the drive that I don't have. It took him years to figure things out for himself and lots of discipline training, a few BAD jobs...and he decided he needed to change the way his life was heading. Of course I was along for the ride! He joined the military, served active duty for almost 5 years, accomplished his bachelor degree in two years, and an MBA in one year. And he's now "considering" law school someday *shutter*. He is honestly the most disciplined person you will ever meet and he accomplishes everything he sets his mind to. We are complete OPPOSITES! ha..ha.. I look up to him and we've had amazing support from both of our families throughout the years. I think Terence knows that I will never make a lot of money or be the bread winner for our family. I am happy in this life and that is what matters most....that I am happy. I love my hubby.

Am I happy? YES

Do I have regrets? YES

Am I where I am supposed to be? YES

Life - it's such a beautiful gift. No matter how far you keep pushing your hearts desires away....they have a way of coming back to find you! With all the highs and lows...there is so much to be thankful for!

20 comments:

Michelle said...

This post couldn't have hit any closer to home.

Thank you.

amy (metz) walker said...

Great post!

Jennifer said...

I've been struggling with this lately. I love that you can recognize that even in your regrets that you are where you are supposed to be.

This post was awesome. Thank you.

Jacquie said...

I have one son who is more like Terence and one who is more like you. He enjoys the moment he's in, but as a Mom it worries me that he won't work hard enough to get where he needs to go. Thanks for the reminder that God can use the good and the bad in our lives!!

Jessica said...

Such a great post...hits home.

Missy said...

Beautiful post and great opportunity to reflect. Thanks!!

Kristen and Andy said...

Love this post - its all so true for me too! Everything I have been through has gotten me to where I am now, but its always a thought in the back of my mind - what if?? I look back now and its so insane to think that when you are in highschool you are supposed to know what you want to do with the rest of your life when you barely know who you even are at that point. This post was great though - putting it all in perspective :)

Jessica said...

Love this, thanks for posting this! I think about it often (especially with such a determined fiance, just like Terence) and it's nice to know i'm not the only one!

Aishlea and Brandon said...

This was a great post....I think we all have regrets...but I too know I am where I am supposed to be! :)

Angie S said...

I am totally where I am supposed to be! I love my life and love being a wife and mother. Gary and I have had our challenges and made mistakes, but we are thankful for all that we have been through...we have learned so much!

Great post girlie!

Jordan said...

GREAT post!!! Definitely what I needed to hear!

Nicole said...

oh so true! I am in the same situation...and also happy!

Classy Fab Sarah said...

Fabulous post! So true!

Clementsville: Population of 4! said...

This post could not of been any more true and it is something I needed to hear SO badly!!! I love how your so real and we are too much alike! Great post, makes me want to do one similar :)

Bonnie said...

We should both go on Project Runway as an inexperienced twin team! Ha ha! I miss doing art & being creative, but who knows where life will lead us. I just want us all to get along & be happy. I think Terence is my complete opposite & I guess we are opposites in some ways too. (but, alike in so many others) Everyone is different. I love you.
Sidder

Bonnie said...

We should both go on Project Runway as an inexperienced twin team! Ha ha! I miss doing art & being creative, but who knows where life will lead us. I just want us all to get along & be happy. I think Terence is my complete opposite & I guess we are opposites in some ways too. (but, alike in so many others) Everyone is different. I love you.
Sidder

Clementsville: Population of 4 said...

This post could not of been any more true and it is something I needed to hear SO badly!!! I love how your so real and we are too much alike! Great post, makes me want to do one similar :)

Angie S said...

I am totally where I am supposed to be! I love my life and love being a wife and mother. Gary and I have had our challenges and made mistakes, but we are thankful for all that we have been through...we have learned so much!

Great post girlie!

Jennifer said...

I've been struggling with this lately. I love that you can recognize that even in your regrets that you are where you are supposed to be.

This post was awesome. Thank you.

amy (metz) walker said...

Great post!

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