April 9, 2008

I am home sick today. I have a dr appt at 2:30 and it can't come soon enough! I got that shot of progesterone last tuesday and I quit bleeding for four days, and then all of the sudden it hit me like a bolt of lightening again. I went through an entire 24 count package of pads yesterday and the bleeding still hasn't stopped. Terence almost took me to the emergency room last night, but I decided to wait until today because I knew all I would do is wait there and they would just give me another shot. I'm so tired of being tired and I feel like someone just took my uterus and squeezed it like an orange!
A little history:
My Papa's mother died of a blood hemorrage. My sister was in the hospital a couple years ago from bleeding so bad she had countless blood transfusions to replace all the blood she lost. Poor sister! We both have never had a normal period, our mother didn't either. God is stronger and blessed my mother with twins though :) And no, she had no "help" getting pregnant with drugs and such. We have both been to blood doctors and they find nothing wrong..which is frustrating! They keep saying we won't have trouble getting pregnant but I know we've both been trying for awhile with no luck :( And they tell us we don't ovulate and just want to put us on drugs....
I hope this doctor today doesn't just send me home with a shot and an excuse that everything will be okay, because it just isn't anymore!!!!

As I was praying last night pleading with God to take away this pain, I feel like He was saying something to me. I suddenly felt so selfish. Selfishness like I have never felt before! I have this wonderful LIFE!!! God has allowed me to live, here on this earth. I have a wonderful husband, and great family, everything to be happy and content with. Why do I always worry so much about stuff I can't control? God is in control, I am not. If He wills for me to have a child that is wonderful, and that is what HE wants for me. Take nothing for granted, we aren't promised tomorrow and I want to feel like this life I am living is worth something more than I think it should be, but I want to be content with what God wants it to be so that I can glorify HIM!

9 comments:

The Browns said...

I know sister...make sure they get your blood count!! It was so horrible what I had to go through & I don't want you to have to go through the same. I'm sure once you have your appt., hopefully they can figure out something to make it stop.
I'm getting my blood work done today & then meeting back up with my gyno on April 22nd to see some of my test results. I hope everything will turn out okay.
Wouldn't it be AWESOME if we got preggers at the same time!!! :D
Love you!

Kelly said...

Oh boy don't I understand that last part.
Bless you heart - it sounds awful. I hope they get you fixed.
And to 2nd what your sister said - I hope you do both get pregnant at the same time! That would be amazing!

Tiffany Norris said...

I am so sorry you're having to go through all this! You're in my prayers.

soleil said...

Oh Becky, I am so sorry that you're having to go through all this! I wish you the very best. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I so hope that the doctors can come up with some answers that really work for both you and Bonnie. Lots of ((hugs)).

soleil said...

Oh Becky, I am so sorry that you're having to go through all this! I wish you the very best. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I so hope that the doctors can come up with some answers that really work for both you and Bonnie. Lots of ((hugs)).

Chas said...

Oh how I hope you got some answers today! I am the queen of worrying about things I cannot control, so I totally feel for you on that end. It's super hard to turn it all over to God, but once we do it feels so much better.

Tenille Rauls said...

Becky,
I am SO glad you commented on our blog. I will for sure be praying for you and your sister. I have a hint of what you guys are going through. It took us a year to get pregnant with Lauren and the Dr. had told me I was not ovulating and just wrote me out a scrip for some meds. I tried this "home rememdy" from another friend and was pregnant the next month. I will e-mail it to you if you would like but don't want to paste it here b/c I am not advertising it or saying this is the way...it just worked for us and two other friends of mine~ Anyway, many prayers and keep in touch!

Tenille Rauls said...

Becky,
I am SO glad you commented on our blog. I will for sure be praying for you and your sister. I have a hint of what you guys are going through. It took us a year to get pregnant with Lauren and the Dr. had told me I was not ovulating and just wrote me out a scrip for some meds. I tried this "home rememdy" from another friend and was pregnant the next month. I will e-mail it to you if you would like but don't want to paste it here b/c I am not advertising it or saying this is the way...it just worked for us and two other friends of mine~ Anyway, many prayers and keep in touch!

The Browns said...

I know sister...make sure they get your blood count!! It was so horrible what I had to go through & I don't want you to have to go through the same. I'm sure once you have your appt., hopefully they can figure out something to make it stop.
I'm getting my blood work done today & then meeting back up with my gyno on April 22nd to see some of my test results. I hope everything will turn out okay.
Wouldn't it be AWESOME if we got preggers at the same time!!! :D
Love you!

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